Clarabelle :o)

only_________me @ 2005-07-09T00:07:00

2005-07-18T04:09:29Z

this one had too long a name. Comment to be added to my new one.

~~ Movie Whore ~~

2005-06-08T02:32:38Z

Taken from Meg's Journal

1. Take this list, post it into your own LJ, and mark the movies you've seen
2. Add five more movies to the end of the list.
3. Count how many X'es you have. If you've seen more than 70 movies, you are a ~*~ Movie Whore ~*~
4. Post the score of how many movies you've seen in your LJ-cut text.
5. Question five more people's taste in film.

1. Napoleon DynamiteX
2. Saw
3. White Noise
4. White Oleander X
5. Anger Management
6. 50 First Dates
7. Friday The 13th
8. Scream
9. Scream 2
10. Scream 3
11. Scary Movie X
12. Scary Movie 2 X
13. Scary Movie 3
14. American Pie X
15. American Pie 2 X
16. American Wedding
17. Harry Potter and the Philosopher's (Sorcerer's) Stone X
18. Harry Potter and the Chamber of Secrets X
19. Harry Potter and the Prisoner of Azkaban X
20. Resident Evil
21. Resident Evil: Apocalypse
22. The Wedding Singer X
23. Little Black Book
24. The Village X
25. Donnie Darko X
26. Lilo & Stitch X
27. Finding Nemo X
28. Finding Neverland X
29. 13 Ghosts X
30. Signs X
31. The Grinch X
32. The Texas Chainsaw Massacre
33. White Chicks
34. The Butterfly Effect
35. 13 going on 30
36. I, Robot X
37. Dodgeball
38. Universal Soldier
39. A Series Of Unfortunate Events X
40. Along Came A Spider
41. Deep Impact
42. Kingpin
43. Never Been Kissed X
44. Meet The Parents
45. Meet The Fockers
46. Eight Crazy Nights
47. A Cinderella Story
48. The Terminal
49. The Lizzie McGuire Movie X
50. Passport to Paris
51. Dumb & Dumber X
52. Dumb & Dumberer
53. Final Destination X
54. Final Destination 2
55. Halloween
56. Halloween 2
57. Halloween 3
58. Halloween 4
59. Halloween 5
60. H20
61. Halloween: the Resurrection
62. The Ring X
63. The Ring 2
64. Harold & Kumar Go to White Castle
65. Practical Magic
66. Chicago X
67. Ghost Ship X
68. From Hell X
69. Team America: World Police
70. Hellboy
71. Secret Window X
72. I Am Sam X
73. The Whole Nine Yards
74. The Day After Tomorrow X
75. Child's Play
76. Bride of Chucky
77. 10 Things I Hate About You X
78. Just Married
79. Gothika
80. A Nightmare on Elm Street
81. Sixteen Candles X
82. Bad Boys 2
83. Joy Ride
84. Seven
85. Ocean's Eleven
86. Ocean's Twelve
87. Identity
88. Lone Star
89. Bedazzled
90. Predator
91. Predator II
92. Independence Day
93. Cujo
94. A Bronx Tale
95. Darkness Falls X
96. Christine
97. ET X
98. Children of the Corn
99. My Boss' Daughter
100. Maid in Manhattan X
101. Frailty
102. How to Lose a Guy in 10 Days X
103. She's All That
104. Calendar Girls
105. Sideways
106. Mars Attacks X
107. Event Horizon
108. Ever After X
109. Forrest Gump
110. Big Trouble in Little China
111. X-Men X
112. X-Men 2
113. Jeepers Creepers
114. Jeepers Creepers 2
115. Catch Me If You Can X
116. The Others X
117. Freaky Friday X
118. Reign of Fire
119. Man on Fire
120. Braveheart
121. Cruel Intentions X
122. The Hot Chick
123. Swimfan
124. Miracle
125. Friday Night Lights
126. Old School
127. Ray
128. The Notebook
129. K-Pax
130. Lord of the Rings: The Fellowship of the Ring X
131. Lord of the Rings: The Two Towers X
132. Lord of the Rings: The Return of the King X
133. A Walk to Remember
134. Sweet Home Alabama X
135. Moulin Rouge X
136. Boogeyman
137. Hitch X
138. The Fifth Element X
139. Star Wars episode I: The Phantom Menance X
140. Star Wars episode II: Attack Of The Clones
141. Star Wars Episode III: Revenge Of The Sith
142. Star Wars episode IV:
143. Star Wars episode V: The Empire Strikes Back
144. Star Wars episode VI: Return Of The Jedi
145. Swimming with Sharks
146. Trainspotting
147. People Under the Stairs
148. Blue Velvet
149. The Sound of Music X
150. Parent Trap X
151. The Burbs
152. SLC Punk
153. Meet Joe Black
154. Wild Things
155. A Clockwork Orange
156. The Order
157. Spider-Man X
158. Spider-Man 2 X
159. Amelie
160. Mean Girls X
161. Confessions of a Teenage Drama Queen X
162. Shrek X
163. Shrek 2 X
164. The Incredibles X
165. Collateral
166. The Fast & The Furious X
167. 2 Fast 2 Furious
168. Sky Captain & The World of Tomorrow
169. Closer
170. The Sixth Sense X
171. a.i. - Artificial Intelligence X
172. Love Actually X
173. The Sweetest Thing X
174. Shutter
175. Ella Enchanted
176. The Princess Diaries X
177. The Princess Diaries 2: Royal Engagement X
178. The Breakfast Club
179. October Sky
180. Remember the Titans X
181. Titanic X
182. Boondock Saints
183. American History
184. Fight Club
185. Heavenly Creatures
186. Stealing Beauty
187. Like Water For Chocolate
188. Powwow Highway
189. Secretary
190. But I'm A Cheerleader X
191. I <3 Huckabees X
192. Ripley's Game
193. Coffee And Cigarettes
194. Taxi Driver
195. Silence Of The Lambs X
196. The Exorcist
197. If Lucy Fell
198. Lady Jane
199. When Harry met Sally
200. Me, Myself & Irene X
201. Kung Fu Hustle
202. Sin City
203. Labyrinth
204. Much Ado About Nothing X
205. The Cowboy Way
206. Paulie X
207. Blazing Saddles
208. Galaxy Quest
209. Guildenstern & Rosencrantz are Dead
210. Citizen Kane
211. You Can Count on Me
212. Young Frankenstein
213. Raiders of the Lost Ark
214. Starman
215. St. Elmo's Fire
216. Coyote Ugly X
217. The Other Sister X
218. Rainman
219. Little Shop of Horrors X
220. Chasing Amy
221. House of Sand and Fog
222. Mildred Pierce
223. The Big Lebowski
224. Mallrats
225. Eternal Sunshine Of The Spotless Mind
226. The Goonies
227. Starsky & Hutch X
228. Saved!
229. The Upside of Anger
230. Sweet Sweetback's Baadasssss Song
231. The Cat's Meow
232. The Rutles
233. Waking Ned Devine
234. Pirates of the Caribbean X
235. Little Women X
236. Huck Finn
237. National Treasure
238. O Brother Where Art Thou?
239. Dick X
240. Howard the Duck
241. Garden State
242. Hero
243. Spinal Tap
244. Almost Famous X
245. Before Sunrise
246. Before Sunset
247. Troy X
248. Gone With The Wind
249. Chocolat
250. Gentlemen Prefer Blondes
251. Now and Then X
252. Romeo and Juliet X
253. Ferris Bueller's Day Off
254. Grease X
255. Guess Who's Coming to Dinner?
256. Mr. North
257. The African Queen
258. The Wizard of Oz X
259. Country Girl
260. The Philadelphia Story
261. Bringing Up Baby
262. The Aviator
263. An Affair To Remember
264. Sabrina X
265. Holiday
266. Conspiracy Theory
267. Stage Door
268. Rigoletto
269. White Christmas
270. Who Framed Roger Rabbit?
271. The Wedding Planner X
272. Arsenic and Old Lace
273. A Day at the Races
274. Willy Wonka & The Chocolate Factory X
275. Bend it Like Beckham X
276. Troop Beverly Hills
277. A Beautiful Mind
278. Urban Legend X
279. Dead Poet's Society
280. Kill Bill vol. 1 X
281. Kill Bill vol. 2 X
282. The Royal Tenenbaums X
283. The Life Aquatic with Steve Zissou
284. American Beauty
285. A Chorus Line
286. Iron Jawed Angels
287. Phantom of the Opera X
288. A League of Their Own
289. Stuart Little X
290. Notting Hill X
291. A Lot Like Love
292. Along Came Polly
293. Billy Madison X
294. Happy Gilmore X
295. Igby Goes Down
296. Sid and Nancy
297. Bruce Almighty
298. The Usual Suspects
299. Chances Are
300. SWAT
301. House of Wax
302. Master and Commander: The Far Side of the World
303. Gladiator
304. Gosford Park X
305. The Jacket
306. Red Dragon
307. Hannibal X
308. Elizabeth
309. Quills X
310. Velvet Goldmine
311. Chuck and Buck
312. Titus
313. The Pillow Book
314. Queen Margot
315. Sex, Lies and Videotape
316. His Girl Friday
317. Persuasion
318. Party Girl
319. Top Hat
320. Singing in the Rain
321. Spirited Away X
322. House of Flying Daggers
323. Goodbye Lenin
324. Willow
325. Battle Royale
326. Dude, Where's My Car?
327. Drop Dead Gorgeous X
328. Josie and the Pussycats X
329. Romancing the Stone
330. Mystery Men X
331. Bound
332. Crossroads X
333. Dawn Of The Dead
334. Shaun Of The Dead X
335. The Hitchhiker's Guide To The Galaxy X
336. Angels with Dirty Faces
337. Deathrace 2000
338. The Terminator
339. Unforgiven (1992)
340. Virtuousity
341. A Life Less Ordinary
342. The Crying Game
343. A Company of Wolves
344. Brotherhood of the Wolf
345. Dirty Work
346. Chutney Popcorn
347. Love in the Time of Money
348. The Life of David Gale
349. Wimbledon
350. Divine Secrets of the YaYa Sisterhood
351. Stuart Little 2 X
352. Rocky Horror Picture Show
353. Buffy the Vampire Slayer
354. Star Trek: Nemesis
355. Flight of the Phoenix
356. The Mask of Zorro X
357. Selena
358. Godsend
359. Enough
360. Murder By Numbers
361. Cube
362. Thought Crimes
363. Van Helsing X
364. The One and Only
365. Uptown Girls X
366. Requiem for a Dream
367. Kontroll
368. Kinsey
369. Touching the Void X
370. Whale Rider X
371. Shark Tale
372. Stargate
373. Black Hawk Down
374. Madagascar
375. Finding Forrester
376. Shakespeare in Love X
377. Get Over It X
378. Mary Poppins X
379. Indiana Jones & The Last Crusade X
380. Indiana Jones & the Temple of Doom X
381. Daredevil
382. Green Mil
383. 8 Mile
384. Clerks
385. The Thomas Crown Affair (1998)
386. The King and I X
387. Striptease
388. The Void
389. One Special Night
390. Victor/Victoria
391. The Bridges of Madison County
392. Something's Gotta Give
393. Murder by Death
394. Marnie
395. One, Two, Three
396. Stage Door Canteen
397. Sister Kenney
398. Mame
399. One Flew Over the Cuckoo's Nest
400. Star Trek: The Motion Picture
401. The Pirates of Penzance X
402. Movie Movie
403. Circle of Iron
404. Kentucky Fried Movie
405. The Mask X
406. The Shawshank Redemption
407. Minority Report
408. The Graduate
409. Shock Treatment
410. Phantom of the Paradise
411. Taxi
412. Benny & Joon
413. Brain Candy
414. The Wrong Guy
415. Fried Green Tomatoes
416. Gigantic: A Tale of Two Johns
417. Ed and His Dead Mother
418. Clue
419. Strictly Ballroom
420. The Adventures of Priscilla, Queen of the Desert X
421. Dogtown and Z-boys
422. Frida
423. Pollock
424. Adaptation
425. The Devil's Backbone
426. Captives
427. Run Lola Run
428. Stalag 17
429. Buffalo 66
430. The House Of Yes
431. Elf
432. Erin Brockovich X
433. Pootie Tang
434. Wet Hot American Summer
435. Super Troopers X
436. Pulp Fiction
437. Pretty Woman
438. Dirty Dancing
439. The Full Monty
440. Interview with a Vampire X
441. Reservoir Dogs
442. Empire Records X
443. Mean Creek
444. Lost In Translation
445. P.S
446. Fame
447. Flashdance
448. Spy Kids X
449. Edward Scissorhands X
450. Eulogy
451. The Mummy X
452. The Mummy Returns X
453. Transformers: The Movie
454. The Neverending Story X
455. The Returner
456. Stage Beauty
457. North
458. The Blues Brothers X
459. Dances with Wolves
500. Flight of the Navigator

501. Bedknobs and Broomsticks

502. For Richer For Poorer

503. The Night Before Christmas

504. Where the Heart Is

505. Educating Rita.

I gots 130 I think.

what's new

2005-06-03T12:45:17Z

1# A new layout featuring Gemma Ward
2# I'm going out with Kip
3# Ezboard is no more, therefore EoD has dissappeared.
4# Lydia is an absolute champion.
5# Meg's left us, but I still loff her.
6# I have exams starting on Tuesday and I've done shit all study for them.
7# I've rediscovered my love of Zelda.
8# Hooked up with Davoe again.
9# I love my mum and grandma.
10# Life's alright.

only_________me @ 2005-05-20T12:22:00

2005-05-22T11:19:54Z

Someone tell me why everyone gets pissed at me.

fuckity

2005-04-23T13:19:18Z

my internet is being a shit. At the moment the only thing I can access is my LJ. That means no AIM, MSN, ezoards or greatestjournal *sobs* Someone give me drugs coz I'm getting withdrawal.

Again

2005-04-12T02:35:55Z

New layout. Please comment.

I'm sick, have been for four days. Mum won't give me any drugs. She says I have to get over ti naturally. "If it dosn't get any better or goes worse then we'll get you something."

WTF!?!?!?!?!? IT'S BEEN FOUR FUCKING DAYS YOU HIPPIE!

only_________me @ 2005-04-01T17:35:00

2005-04-01T09:44:04Z

This is me asking my best mate Karys about how I should tell Adrian my feelings for him.

»¤ - Here comes the sun/Here comes the sun/And I say/It's alright (Anyone got the Whitlams song Buy Now Pay Later?)- ¤« says:

but how do I do it?

»¤ - Here comes the sun/Here comes the sun/And I say/It's alright (Anyone got the Whitlams song Buy Now Pay Later?)- ¤« says:

jesus

karys says:

JUST HUMP ON HIM

karys says:

shit i mean JUMP

I love her XD

Happy Easter!

2005-03-27T08:39:50Z

Yay! Yet another layout! I htink I need to join a layout-whore club or something. I'll probably change it again soon as well. Something about it dosn't quit sit well. If anyone could take a look at it and comment that would be great :)

Apart from that I got back from Outward Bound on Thursday. It was alright but I didn't overly enjoy it. I don't know whether it's because I'm prissy or because I found some people in my group annoying. For me ten days with the same people is waaaaaaay too much. I also hate having dirty hands. So, yes, it was frustrating most of the time.

Adrian was mentioned a lot. Like, everyone at school knows about my little *cough* crush. Hehehe, it was so funny. For some reason we were talking about people with big hands, then Jess W said something like "Youknow who has big hands..." and then she stopped because, well, anytime his name was mentioned I'd strat going on and on and on. But I so knew what she was going to say so I just looked at her a burst out laughing. And that was one of those "You had to be there moments."

I also got to know the new girl Chloe pretty well which was good. She's just arrived from Karratha and she was only at school for four days before we went on Outward Bound. My admiration for Michelle also grew because all throughout it she was so happy and cheerful. I htink I might beciome a Christian. I also found out that Brodie (the guy I went to the ball with) is an arrogant asshole. This gives me every reason to say "No way." when my mum asks me when if I'm going to go out with him.

Which brings me onto another subject. I have been talking to Joel Someone on MSN and he asked me to go to the movies. Well, not straight out, but he's like "If you're not going to the movie marathon can you tell me because then me and you can go see The Ring2." Porblem is I don't reeeaaally know who he is, even thought he goes ot my school. I htink my excuse will be "I heard it's pretty gay." which is actually true because Caitlin ((</span>pumpkinpasties</span> ) said it was pretty boring

Other than that, EoD is going well. I've got to get in
touch with Rei and see if she still wants the job as an admin.
Jeez, I havn't talked to her for months. I'm also thinking
about having another charrie, I'm thinking Hufflepuff 3rd year
with Mika Boorem as a PB. But I want to make her some special
power or something, though at the moment I'm not sure what.
If anyone's got any ideas, please comment ^^

One last thing. I have a bump developing between my eyebrows
and it hurts, but it's not a pimple. It's like the crap is
too far under the skin for it to be one. So I tried to squeeze
it and it hurt, so now I've got a glob of toothpaste on my
forehead. Also, who thinks I should make this a friends only
journal?

only_________me @ 2005-03-09T15:55:00

2005-03-09T08:01:21Z

Ok. I don't like you. At first I thougth you were okay, hell I admired you. I thought you were an amazing roleplayer, and I still do. But there's one thing I hate abotu you and it's your attitude. You're a bitch. A fucking hoe of a bitch. And you know it. You even tell people this. Your manner is sarcastic and rude to any new applicant that comes along and I hate you for it. I wonder why on earth no one else can see hits. Maybe I'm just being a shit. But I don't care. What pisses me off even more, is that people almost respect you for it. It's like, because you're a bitch, and you admit it, you're some wonder-woman. This strikes me as odd somehow. Where has the decency gone? It's like you've made being a bitch good again. What the fuck? I don't know. It's just not on. Not for me. Just because oyu admit to it, dosn't make it any better. For fucks sake start acting a little more human and a little less arrogant.

only_________me @ 2005-03-09T15:46:00

2005-03-09T07:47:34Z

Claim Your Old British Man by jgurlpunkrck
Your Name
Your Age
Your Old British Man
You met...	through the Make a Wish Foundation
The relationship ended...	when you left him for an even older British man

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OMG YEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEESSSSSSSSS! COLIN FIRTH IS FECKING SEXHAY! -loffs on Dacry-

only_________me @ 2005-03-08T21:05:00

2005-03-08T13:05:53Z

You scored as Gogo. you are completely insane. you kill at will for no apparent reason, and you're pretty damn good with a morning star.

which kill bill assassin are you???
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Hehehehe. I htink it's coz I kept on sayin gthat I was insane.

only_________me @ 2005-03-06T12:19:00

2005-03-06T06:03:57Z

I am lethargic with tirendess and I have a movie marathon tonight. Oh and I'm a shit admin. I dunno what's happening but lately I've just been abandoning the board. My creativity is all dried up and I'm so busy with schoolwork. Someone tell me what to do.

only_________me @ 2005-03-03T15:58:00

2005-03-03T09:39:37Z

WHAT THE BLEEDIN FUCK?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?

Dude, ok, I was checkin out old accounts and WTF?!?!?!? I HAVE EZSUPPORTER ON ONE OF THEM!

And it expires in 19 days -___-

only_________me @ 2005-02-25T17:50:00

2005-02-25T11:40:09Z

I'm a sucker. I said I was over Adrian when I'm not. I'm far from it. It shits me something terrible. Like, I'm away for five days so I htink "No longer thank god.". BUt then I get back to school and it starts again.</p>

Other than that Luke got his hair cut to a number three. I've been telling him to shave it and raise money but I suppose it wouldn't work as he's already got cancer. But with his new haircut you can really see it's falling out. There aren't any major bald patches, but it's really thin.

Mum got a mole cut out of her arm and they sent it off to the lab. She got five stitches. She has also been oddly happy.

It's my school ball tomorrow. I'm slightly nervous, for the fact that I'm taking two partners. And before you scream S.L.U.T! I'm only taking the second because his friend wants him to come and he needed me to invite him. Really, in my heart (lol) I'm going with Brodie who is really sweet (and has hair like Ron! xD)

And yay! I made icons! All Emily Browning, coz she's cool.

3) 4) 5)
Comment if you want them :)

only_________me @ 2005-02-21T20:14:00

2005-02-21T12:14:44Z

NEW LAYOUT! WITH EMILY BROWNING COZ SHE IS DA BOMB XD Can someone tell me whether they like it or not?

And another thing. Can ouy not change your LJ username? Becaus ethis one is too fiddly and I don't want to move alllll my old LJ entries...

only_________me @ 2005-02-21T19:22:00

2005-02-21T11:26:22Z

Dood. I seriously never update. But I always check what other people have said. It's like one of the first things I type in when my internet browser opens. Here are the messages for today.

REI -

I wish yer life weren't so sucky right now. But you must remember, keep Charlie in your heart and you shall be forever happy!

MEG -

I loveth Raph

ADRIAN (who will never read this) -

I'm over you

MUM -

I loveth you

LUKE -

I wish you'd actually drink the amount of water your supposed to instead of keeping yourself sick, which means mum has to look after you. And I know I'm a sad,twisted,bitter,spoilt,stuck-up little bitch for saying that.

only_________me @ 2005-02-07T19:04:00

2005-02-07T10:57:36Z

I LOVE ADRIAN I LOVE ADRIAN I LOVE ADRIAN

Dudem you would never know hey? Ahhhh, I feel like a stupid teenage girl. Which I am.

Bugger it.

With the Seasons

2005-01-18T11:37:08Z

w00t! New layout. 'Tis a bit autumn like I know and it's still summer where I am, but I do love Coldplay and so stuff it. Plus I had inspiration. It came form Kayleena of HogwartsIRT.com . It came from one of the super-sweet icons she made so credit goes to her. You can see the icons if you go to the index page and scroll down.

Anyways, my day today was good. I actually spent it away from my computer -le gasp- and spent it at my friend Temily's house; we had a sleepover last night. We painted this little room inside her shed and made it into a proper hangout place which is pretty cool. Her little sis Jess also had gotten a puppy two days before so I gave it lots of cuddles. Tis so cute cept it's name is Gus o_O

So my day was pretty good. Then I get home and mum's in a shit coz Luke's in hspital. I accidently drop an olive on the tabel while we're having tea and she starts yelling at me telling me to be more grown up. So I fucking walk out coz I don't want her shit. When I come back she tells me that they don't even expect Luke to live two years. YEH WELL THANKS FOR FUCKING TELLING ME THIS BEFORE YOU PRUDENT BITCH!

So yes, good good times.

only_________me @ 2005-01-16T14:02:00

2005-01-17T06:08:43Z

You know, I'll admit it. It's been a long time since I actually -enjoyed- doing a thread. For the last few months I've been feeling as though it was mor eof a responsibility then anything else. But since I've been rping with Meg and Em I've started to enjoy it again. Their character are crazy and so damn loveable lol. I've also got characters I like. Dreamer Imogen and slutty Blythe. By the way, I'm loving the name Imogen right now.

And taht's all I can be bothered writing right now. I need ot make a new layout though. This one is so old and boring.

only_________me @ 2005-01-15T16:40:00

2005-01-14T12:59:28Z

Richard:

"I wish to tell you how ardently I admire and love you."

But dammnit I can't.

only_________me @ 2004-12-15T18:30:00

2004-12-15T10:36:12Z

Dear alas, I do believe I am in love with the idea of being in love with Adrian Craddock. He makes me laugh so much and he's a drama nerd like me. Aaaaah -dopey smile- And I'm the play with him next year.

only_________me @ 2004-12-05T15:45:00

2004-12-06T07:52:00Z

Stolen from hidden_heaven

leave an anonymous comment with:

- 1 secret
- 1 critique
- 1 compliment
- 1 death threat
- 1 love note
- 1 word to describe yourself
- 1 word to describe me
- lyrics to a song
- how long we've known each other
- a hint to who you are

:/

2004-12-04T09:02:18Z

Well, there's good news for my board Era of Darkness. I'm not getting it a new owner but I got something even better. Moonpie Meg (Moon Prowler) has become an admin which in my eyes is fantastic. She's an awesome rper and also the owner of Liam Ishunga -gush-. She also knows a few tricks and things to help new boards so I htink she'll be great. We've pushed the opening date back to the 10th of January. By then everyone will have finished with Christams and they'll be wanting to rp ^^ There are still things I need to go over, like the information and things as well. I also want to get a website going and affiliate with anyone and everyone :)

Apart from teh RP world though, my life has been pretty shit. I got the smallest part in the Grammar school productionnext year (although I've gotten ove rthta partly) an' there's lots of tension around the house coz of Luke. Mum and I have been constantly at each others throats and we had this massive fight on Wednesday. It started because she forgot to pick me up form school even though I specifically told her "Do not forget me, I repeat, do not forget me". But she did -_____- In any case, I had to walk home WITH a french horn and so needless to say, I was pretty shitty about that. Then she comes home and starts nagging and shit I just coudln't stand it. Come to think of it, it wasn't the biggets fight we've had. But I told her some stuff which was a bit harshy, but in my eyes, pretty true. See, she expects me to do things when I havn't been asked. Like, I'm supposed to read her mind. So I was shhouting at her underneath my pillow telling her that SHE is the one with teh communication problem. Believe me, I'd be happy to do whatever she asks of me. Point being she has to ASK me, rather than thinking that I can simply read her mind.

Anyways, I was upset and skippe doff to Grandma's for a couple of days. I COULD have been on T.A.G.S camp learning how to surf. But I felt like shit so I didn't want to go. Anyways, Grandma gave me lots of love and so now I'm happy again. Apparently mum was still a bit upset the next day and she seemed a little quiet today and yeh, I do feel bad. But I mean, it was somethign she needed to hear. She expects us to do all these little things, out of the ordinary things, without being asked. Then she gets aggro when we don't realise we were meant to do them. Still, that's a touchy subject.

Meh, I have so many threads to reply to. Guilty Pleasures Masque thinga, Dumble and Snape at Eternal, Fight and Eternal and something else, though I can't remember what.

- C

Fanficnesh

2004-11-15T09:00:35Z

Well, I'm finally releasing my first fic upon the world. It's Remus/Lily, a couple I loved a little while back. Still do. Except now I'm becoming more and more convinced Remus was really fucking Sirius in canon. *damn you Lia and Jate* Aaaaaaaanywho, it's behind the cut.

That day, like all days, was just beginning. The sun was peaking over the horizon, spilling its warm rays over the sleepy village of Hogsmeade. But night still lingered, it's cold, grey claws grasping onto whatever darkness was left. One house, the last one sitting at the end of the street, still sat in shadow.

In was a pretty building, a typical English cottage. The roof of the cottage was thatched, giving off an antique look. Picture perfect it was. The garden was full of flowers, particularly roses, which lined along the white picket fence. There was a birdbath at the end of a clean pebble path and a bench sitting right beside it. Most intriguing was the large oak tree, swaying in the last breeze of the night. It was old, being planted hundreds of years beforehand. It's branches were sturdy and strong, one of them holding onto a tire swing.

In the bough of that swing, sat a young man.

He sat hunched, face and eyes to the ground. Light brown hair flopped over his forehead. It was messy, having not yet been combed that morning. His face however, was clean-shaven, showing through his lingering youth. It was lingering, for at the age of eighteen, he was considered a man by both the muggle and wizarding world. He believed it. He had been through so much in such a short time, for eighteen years was a short time. To the world anyway. To him, it had been a long, hard slog. Of course there were happy memories, in fact, there were lots. But it was still life. Still unfair in many ways.

He had started life like any other, born to parents, fortunately, who wanted him. He had grown up, like a normal magical child, developing a taste for candy and flying. He experimented with his parent’s wand, which in turn, became the cause of the small scar upon his cheek. But one thing happened that changed his life forever. A werewolf bite, received at age five. They said it was a miracle he survived, with all the blood that was spilt. Later on, he would disagree. It was no miracle to him. Every full moon, he would undergo a horrific transformation. To become a wolf, vicious and most of all, dangerous.

Oooooh, how he would scream when those times came. The process from boy to wolf was a painful one. Remus full remembered the tearing sensation, as if his skin was being ripped apart. But it was, the man had to remind himself. The fur was not his own, it was something else. He knew how his parents had feared. Once his transformation period had passed, he would often come out of the room. His mother would be standing there, waiting for him. Her blue eyes would be wide with fear. She would never look up at him, or through the door. The room would have frightened her even more. After his "time", the walls would be scratched, with the paper peeling like an apple.

Of course, now he had the potions to help. The young man found it incredibly ironic that the year he left school, wolfbane was found. A substance which helped the transformation, he could become a wolf peacefully, without the pain, without the suffering. Now with that potion, he could keep his mind. Be a wolf, yet have a human mind. It had been so hard without the wolfbane...But still, he got through it, though not alone.

The young man remembered well, his first day at Hogwarts. He had been so scared, so frightened. Everywhere he turned, he swore he saw people staring, as if he had "lycanthrope" stamped across his forehead. He had met Sirius, James and Peter on the train. They came bursting into his cabin, laughing on how they had just tripped over some greasy haired kid. He had barely raised a finger, except to turn the pages of his book. James was the true leader, bold, brave and extremely cunning. He was also an arrogant little prick, which added to it all. Sirius was the best friend, standing loyally by James' side. He shared the same qualities, a daring nerve and that certain mischievous quality. Then there was Peter, poor, little Peter. He had laughed along with them, his watery eyes sparkling with admiration. Yes, he would be the odd one out, the one that was always not so talented and maybe, not so brave. Indeed, Remus had felt sorry for him.

That was his name. Remus. Oh how he remembered the first introductions. James had stepped forward, with Sirius close behind. Peter seemed to linger back, surveying what he saw in front of him. Remus had not given his name instantly of course. It was true that he thought those boys to be quite.... Full of themselves. The group had quickly exited after that, obviously finding that this new stranger was not worth their time. There was the hook nosed boy to pick on instead.

Then he had found Lily. Or rather, she had found him. He had come wandering through the door; just minutes after the group had left. That pretty face, nearly covered by auburn hair had popped around the door.

"Hello." she had said kindly, green eyes sparkling. "Do you mind if I sit here with you? It's just, the girls in the compartment I was just in have...Turned a bit nasty."

The girls had turned out to be none other than Narcissa and Bellatrix Black who would torment Lily for the rest of her life.

Remus of course, had obliged, and shifted his things off the other seat. There, Miss. Evans had joined him and they got to know each other, talking about life and other such things. It turned out Lily was from a muggle background and had no idea that magic was real, until she received her letter. It was quite different from his own...Being brought up in a pureblood family. They had laughed as well, their unique humour suiting each other perfectly. Lily had been Remus's first true friend.

He soon made others though. To be exact, three others, that would make his life so much more simple, yet so complex. Over time, James, Sirius and Peter grew on him. All sorted into the same house, they did share one simple trait. A certain love for mischief. Though Remus was dubbed as "the sensible one", he was always near when Prongs or Padfoot pulled a prank. That had been there special names in the end. Padfoot was Sirius, Prongs was James, he (Remus) was Moony and Peter was Wormtail. How they came to be was another story all together...

For months, Remus had been sneaking off. The Whomping Willow provided the cover he needed, having a secret tunnel hidden inside. Every full moon, the young boy would be herdered in there, to undergo his transformation. Every full moon he would have to make excuses.

"My mother is sick again. I have to go see her." is what he would say. But of course, the gang worked it out soon enough.

"We know." James had said, his face serious. "We know about you Remus."

Then he had laughed, his eyes shining with mischief. It was all a new adventure. From there, it all began. Five years it took, becoming animagi. Remus would watch them undergo tests, or rather, Peter undergo tests. To James and Sirius, he was there guinea pig. Not that the poor boy didn't oblige. He had lost count the number of times Peter had been sent to the Hospital Wing...Sprouting ears or even, on one occasion, wings.

Eventually, of course, they had succeeded. It was bound to happen, with such a pair of brilliant minds. At will, James, Peter and Sirius could turn into animals. James would be a mighty stag and Sirius a great dog. Together, they would be powerful, finding it easy to hold him down if anything got out of hand. Then there was Peter, who as a rat, could slip down any hole or under any door. As a group, they were unstoppable and that brought Remus some of the happiest times of his life.

And then it brought him the saddest.

For within that group of friends, there was an unquestionable loyalty. How it would be tested with Remus.

James had always liked Lily, which had been apparent from the start. He would follow her around, smoothing back his hair and acting "cool". Though Lily, much to Remus' relief, had seen right through it. But then, in their last and final year, both had been made Headboy and Headgirl. That in itself, was a test. Remus had always fancied himself as Headboy, taking on the responsibilities of prepping the first years and being generally kind. But then it had been James. The boy that ran around making trouble. Though he never admitted it, Remus couldn't understand. Wasn't he the perfect choice?

Then, there came the dilemma. Through all he time they spent together, James and Lily began to grow closer. Everyday, Remus would see it. James would make an attempt and fail pitifully, but still get a laugh from the lovely Miss Evans. Everyday, he would hear about it from James and Lily.

"What does he say about me?" she would ask, pressing him for every detail.

"Does she like me?" he would ask, giving Remus a stare so out of the ordinary, he would have to do a double take.

In the end, he would just shrug them off. Give them an excuse not to answer. It was all too hard.

It was in his fifth year, that Remus Lupin had realised his love for Lily Evans. It wasn't anything out of the ordinary that did it, nothing special. Just a lovely spring afternoon. She had been laughing at a pitiful joke he had just made. It had been so stupid, so lame, yet still she was laughing. That was when the young man realised how hard his heart was thumping, how sweaty his palms were. A feeling in his heart told him to tell her what how he felt, to blurt it out and tell her the truth. But his head took over and instead he stopped himself, keeping his thoughts in silence.

In that, Remus lost Lily forever. Once she and James began to date, the young man realised there was no turning back for the couple; he had lost out. Eventually, he tried to move on and started seeing other girls. He had many relationships, sometimes serious, sometimes not. But whatever they were, there was no light in them, no passion. Remus Lupin’s heart would only ever belonged to one.

The sound of a fly-screen door opening brought the young, sandy haired man out of his thoughts. Turning his handsome head, he searched for the source of the sound. The bright, morning sun had finally risen, causing the man to blink. A young woman stood on the porch, her long auburn hair twisted around her shoulders. A small smile sat on her soft pink lips and a twinkle sparkled in her eye. As they always did.

“My Remus, you are up early this morning.” She said, tightening her dressing gown before giving a yawn and sitting gracefully on the steps.

“It’s not that early.” He replied, the trace of a grin across his face.

“Whatever.”

For a few moments, there was silence between the two, with only the sounds of rising birds breaking it. One day, he thought to himself, I’ll tell her. One day…

"Fancy a game of gobstones?" the young man asked.

"Why Remus?" she replied. "You know I always win."

He just shrugged, his amber eyes glinting.

"Alright then." Lily said, laughing lightly as she rose. "You must like getting beaten." She laughed again, shaking her pretty head in thought, before she walked back into the house.

"Yeh, that must be it." he murmured to himself, before going in after her.

So yes, if anyone reads it, feel free to comment ^^;;

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2004-11-15T08:49:13Z

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